The truth.  It’s been a good run, Tumblr.  It was fun while it lasted.  But the time has come time for us to part ways. 

Over the last couple of months I’ve questioned my intentions with this blog, and thought long and hard about the exposure of my little one on the internets and the world wide web.  I speak the truth and the truth is, we aren’t seeking cutest baby blog fame and awards, we aren’t looking for hundreds of followers, and we certainly aren’t interested in making “friends” via internet, whether that be fellow tumblr moms or just plain creepers.  Ew to the creepers.

I started this blog when Ella was born, like a lot of new moms reading up on parenting blogs, mommy blogs, fashionable mommy blogs, dad blogs, you name it blogs… finding myself creating our own to add to the billions out there.  The original intention was for 1. documentation and journaling, 2. family and close friends.  At the time I had discovered tumblr had Directories and categories of blogs you could discover, and recommend, including a parenting directory.  I found some really great reads and interesting things I probably would’ve never come across.  That since has been removed.  I also fell into the “recommend me!”, let’s see how many followers I can get mode. 

Soon I was blogging almost everyday, at least every week, even if I was swamped at work, overwhelmed at home, and lacking on sleep.  Why?  I don’t have a deadline to get a post in.  My life doesn’t depend on it.  Why am I so consumed by this?  I was living life just to write about it.  I couldn’t fully enjoy moments and milestones without eagerly thinking, “hmmmmm how am I going to blog about this?”. 

Eventually my peak season for my job took a hold on me, and squeezed out any extra time and energy I had, stopping my blogging all together this summer.  What I didn’t know was it was a blessing in disguise.  I got to closely evaluate time (in general) spent, learning to budget our time wisely.  It wasn’t long before I felt like I was learning my 1,2,3’s all over again..

1.  My family

2.  My career- the beast that puts bread on the table

3.  Myself

4.  Whatever time is left over can be spent doing extra curriculars

It’s pretty simple really

Any full time working mom, combined with a full time working dad should know that any time that is left in the day to spend with their full time toddler is precious.  Let’s face it, the 45 minute spent catching up on 20 other blogs, combined with 20 minutes of looking at your same favorite websites over and over and over and over and over again, adds up.  If I added that time along with facebooking and tumblring in one week, it would probably be equivalent to the time it would take me to build a friggin tree house.  I could built a tree house in that time. (Probably maybe most likely not a super sturdy one, but you get the idea).  All those lost minutes in the day could potentially come together to form an extra hour or two to focus on the things that really matter.  The now.  The “what’s in front of you”.  I’ll give you a hint, it’s not your computer screen. or your iphone.

Along with evaluated time, a few other things became clear to me…  I came to a disturbing realization that our society has an unhealthy obsession with over sharing (i.e. facebook, twitter, social medias what have you).  I began to become annoyed by meaningless mindless facebook posts of my own family and real friends, and my tumblr dashboard, quick to click “unfollow”/”remove” without even thinking twice that I was related to this person by blood.  and all the while simultaneously recognizing this need to over share in myself.  I didn’t like it.  I’ve always been a very private person.  But here I was sharing and maybe even over sharing a little someone’s business— who has no say in it at all, Ella.  Someone please slap me.

So, yes.  This is us signing off.  We’ve already backed up our blog (for those who are interested in doing the same).  We’re closing up shop.  And maybe down the road, who knows, start a new password protected blog for family and friends only.

Live life!  Today.  Be present.  Embrace the now. 

Happy trails, friends.